Back in May, I created my #22 goal of “Get a new job” and then I did so, in the wake of the worst boss I’ve ever had in the entire world (yes, I said it). Today essentially marks two weeks that I’ve been at my new job/school/classroom and it’s…different.
Like, I didn’t realize you could go somewhere and no one complains about anything. Like seriously NOTHING. After school today, we had an “Ice Cream Social” that appeared to be mostly for the parents who wanted to hang out with each other, but I stood around with several of the other new teachers who came from other dysfunctional places. We were having a hard time wrapping our brains around working in a place where everyone seems unabashedly happy. I mentioned the apparent utopia to my former teaching partner the other day and she remarked, “Yeah, try normal for once.”
I used to come home feeling like I had been hit by a garbage truck. Beyond the fact that my boss was a wreck, just working with super high poverty kids was really, really stressful. If they weren’t calling you profane names, they were asking if they could have another helping of the free breakfast because they didn’t eat dinner. On top of that, the public was demanding to know why your test scores sucked, and then you would have to shoo meth heads off the playground.
Now that everything is sunshine and roses, I have a tremendous amount of guilt for my friends that stayed behind. They are doing the truly important work, and I jumped ship. I have no regrets, but now that I’m on the other side of the messed up system, I can’t stop thinking about how much harder they are working.
I know every transition in life has an adjustment period, and for now I’m trying to enjoy my new spot on easy street. I’m getting to sleep in later (thanks to a shorter commute); enjoy my morning coffee at my desk (thanks to no morning duty); eat my lunch sitting down with other teachers (thanks to no lunch duty); and get all my lesson planning done (thanks to an actual prep period). It’s just so eeeeeeasy!
Oh yeah, and when my principal holds a meeting, not only does the meeting start on time, she doesn’t fall asleep in front of everyone halfway through – just sayin.